( Peter is equally unaware why Matt had fallen for him, they had that in common. still he can tell well enough that he was genuine, and despite all his attempts to prove to Matt Murdock he wasn’t worth the energy here the guy was, smiling and pulling him closer and making dumb jokes to try and make him laugh. for once in his life Peter does not protest Matt calling him a boy, perhaps because they were both boys in this situation which made it a little less aggravating.
it takes him a minute, running calloused fingertips over the stubble on Matt’s jaw, taking him in and trying to memorize every piece of him. because maybe it really was inevitable that he’d lose him and if that was the case Peter has lost too many people not to cling onto every new memory he can get his hands on. )
I’m sorry I was a shithead, ( Peter mumbles, eyes wandering because despite the fact Matt is blind, Peter hates looking people in the eye when he has to say something uncomfortable. ) I love you too, you know? That’s the scariest part.
( loving means having something to lose. putting a name on things made them too real, and reminded him too much of what he lost. it had been easier to panic and recoil and if he weren’t in so very deep, maybe he’d have been able to stay away. but just ask Gwen Stacy how good Peter was at truly leaving behind someone he loves. )
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it takes him a minute, running calloused fingertips over the stubble on Matt’s jaw, taking him in and trying to memorize every piece of him. because maybe it really was inevitable that he’d lose him and if that was the case Peter has lost too many people not to cling onto every new memory he can get his hands on. )
I’m sorry I was a shithead, ( Peter mumbles, eyes wandering because despite the fact Matt is blind, Peter hates looking people in the eye when he has to say something uncomfortable. ) I love you too, you know? That’s the scariest part.
( loving means having something to lose. putting a name on things made them too real, and reminded him too much of what he lost. it had been easier to panic and recoil and if he weren’t in so very deep, maybe he’d have been able to stay away. but just ask Gwen Stacy how good Peter was at truly leaving behind someone he loves. )