( Peter is not unaware that death is a natural part of life. it'd be one thing if the people around him died of old age or even of a long fight to some sort of disease. it's sort of the murder and accidental death with no expectation or warning, the sudden brutality of there one minute and gone the next that is the problem. for him it isn't okay to just brush it under the rug with the idea it'd happen sooner or later — it would have been later if it weren't for him and his choices, and Peter can't quite let himself forget that.
his senses are funny, often acting instinctively, and especially when Peter is on edge. still, apparently his spider-senses don't find Matt's attempts to comfort him to be a threat; probably because they aren't. Peter feels as if he doesn't quite deserve the comfort but he craves it anyway, holding onto Matt as if he might never let go, despite all his attempts to convince himself it would be better if he did. his face is wet and he's glad to hide it in the fabric of Matt's sweatshirt, even though it leaves his answered muffled. )
You don't get to tell me I don't have to worry about it when you are bleeding as we speak. ( Peter can't tell where, but this close he can smell it. at least he probably doesn't have to worry about accidentally killing Matt, since Matt will probably kill himself faster. it doesn't make him feel that much better. ) If anybody that wants to hurt Spider-Man finds out about you, that I care about you? You'd be in even more danger than you already are.
( and if caring was dangerous, giving what they were a name was certainly worse. dating was sort of like painting a target on Matt's back, if Peter ever got a new enemy that had a bone to pick and a clue about his identity. not to mention the fact Harry is most assuredly not dead, and still making his life miserable, even from Ravencroft. Harry had thrown the last person Peter loved to their inevitable death, he's fairly certain Harry wouldn't hesitate to hurt someone else if he thought it would even slightly upset him. )
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his senses are funny, often acting instinctively, and especially when Peter is on edge. still, apparently his spider-senses don't find Matt's attempts to comfort him to be a threat; probably because they aren't. Peter feels as if he doesn't quite deserve the comfort but he craves it anyway, holding onto Matt as if he might never let go, despite all his attempts to convince himself it would be better if he did. his face is wet and he's glad to hide it in the fabric of Matt's sweatshirt, even though it leaves his answered muffled. )
You don't get to tell me I don't have to worry about it when you are bleeding as we speak. ( Peter can't tell where, but this close he can smell it. at least he probably doesn't have to worry about accidentally killing Matt, since Matt will probably kill himself faster. it doesn't make him feel that much better. ) If anybody that wants to hurt Spider-Man finds out about you, that I care about you? You'd be in even more danger than you already are.
( and if caring was dangerous, giving what they were a name was certainly worse. dating was sort of like painting a target on Matt's back, if Peter ever got a new enemy that had a bone to pick and a clue about his identity. not to mention the fact Harry is most assuredly not dead, and still making his life miserable, even from Ravencroft. Harry had thrown the last person Peter loved to their inevitable death, he's fairly certain Harry wouldn't hesitate to hurt someone else if he thought it would even slightly upset him. )